Suffocation

There is nothing simple about being in a relationship. Nothing even remotely complex about it either. Yet why do people mix up the responsibilities of being a partner and that of being a parent to another?

Care.

Just one word.

We all know it. But does that really give anyone the right to try and have full reign over another person's life? To get upset over petty things like style of dressing and the type of hair colour.

A lot of things are in my mind.

But the words of a close friend just keeps ringing in my ears.

"hahahha. you like dating your father only. he just wants to show his masculinity la. aiya. cute la both of you. but how can you tahan? just walk away la. he's not a real partner"

i know he's right.

but this phrase in cantonese is just such a pain sometimes.

"mm seh tak"

is there an english translation to it?

i guess the closest would be "don't have the heart to" but thats not really the words.

but we all go through it at one point or another.

and it really can bring so much demise sometimes.

im so suffocated.

ive forgotten who i am.