sometimes, all i need is someone to brighten my day with a bunch of flowers and hugs.
its getting lonelier here .

2017 here we go

seems like its all this new year new me bullshit again. heck, lets get on with it. 

what im looking to achieve on this resolution 

making full use of my gym membership

yep, finally joined the gym, so i need my khloe kardashian body , bring on the squads

create a space of my own 

 a space of whatever and with whoever, this would be a personal journey 

consider on relocating 

this has probably been the end game of our relationship, somewhere new somewhere fresh 

capturing better quality moments

 gotta start taking better videos and photos for us 

smashing out the year with positivity 

 i reckon this would be the most important thing of all, building positivity. its not an easy task, we all speak it but action speaks louder than words. Find positivity is a starving strive everyone wants. Lets keep striving for it , shan't we?

give me something , sad soul

a fresh new week begins,

but i still could remember every single second and moment of the whole downfall 

it was that moment which made me believe all the cliche quotes

'learn to love yourself more'

This probably happens to every 3 out of 5 girls. The pain and the heartache, the deep heartaches. The ones which gives you that minty feeling inside your chest. The negative thoughts clouding the mind, over thinking to the point where its not analysing. 

Shall you ever believe in love again? Or even this person again?

this brutal act can never be forgotten , ever. 

Closing in the dark light. 

There is loneliness, the one person which we can ever rely on, ourselves. 

Recapping the moment, sharp words were ripped out by in the car. It just came by so quickly , when anger and stress hits the spot, it all goes amuk. And there it was, walking away. This was the mistaken . No one should ever walk away during an intense argument. NEVER

Tears streaming, it was obvious. The soul returns to its humble base filled with emotional negativities. 

It was then ANGER grew to frustration and MORE LIES. 

 A place where it will always be my everything, it opened its doors to me. Without hesitation, i took hostage inside but it was dark and empty, alone. It was evident, thoughts and more thoughts. 

I needed distraction, i got some but it didn't last. 

Telling myself to go to bed, shut my brain . It just kept going, until that phone call. 

The phone call which distinguish the whole plot of this. 

Laughing to myself, what a waste of space, this bullshit act of friends you have. 

RIDICULOUS. 

despite it all, i still have to save you from all this

Did you really think i deserve this?

Something inside persuaded me to take charge, i did. MISTAKE

Maybe someone up there is really testing my ability to love
this is life worth living ?
faith is broken,
hands are bounded

that cold call, what you say tells me nothing
whats the truth, give me something

the conversations , the lies, the codes. 
Its all all irrelevant. Because it was done, that was the straw. 
The voice heard was all it took

i just wanted something to hold onto , 
I've got nothing, 
The fear of losing is now reality. 

Lost all the way, lost all reason. 

A rose and a balloon, doesn't make up for nothing
Paper bills don't make no difference
Your words just didn't mean a damn 
The hurt was real, it was there and it still is. 
the broken glass on the floor, had no reflection 

Still i went back to the very god damn place we started out, all the memories and everything else in between. 

Was i ready to let it go ?
Was that what i intended to happen ?

How do we vindicate the truth?
Do i really want to know what happened?
Do i really believe every word you say ?


This was a side of you, I've seen all along just waiting, like a prey. 
ANGER, was the trigger. 
Time will heal they say, it will , but never recover. 
Time will make you stronger, but it comes with vulnerability 


To the actual truth, i may never find or hear from you . 
But i will be patiently wait for you to reveal. 
To the people around on the vague dark environment, 
the bridge is burnt for you. 
To you , 
i pray to love you again, someday, one day. 

*foodlah: Sydney Harajuku Gyoza & Yasaka Ramen

*Foodlah: Sydney Harajuku Gyoza 

& Yasaka Ramen

Sydney Harajuku Gyoza  

9-15 Bayswater Road, Potts Point  NSW 2011 SYDNEY

Being hungry after landing in Sydney, Harajuku Gyoza was the perfect place to go as we wanted a light lunch! This space definitely was bigger than i expected it to be. It was just about after lunch hour when we arrived the premises, hence the quiet atmosphere. We were greeted with a one page menu and placed by the bar.

What we ordered: 

• poached duck dumpling
• ageshi tofu
• grilled pork dumpling
• teriyaki chicken don
• rain drop cake with sakura

rate: 5/10

ageshi tofu: average

poached duck dumpling: good!

grilled pork dumpling: average

raindrop cake with matcha : decent!

YASAKA RAMEN 

161 Military Road, NeutralBay NSW 2089

After Instasearching of what ramen is good closeby to where we were at that time, Yasaka was it! Apparently this is their second store, tucked away on Military Road. It can be easily missed , therefore pay attention to the numbers on the street :)

If you love thickened soup tonkotsu ramen this is the place to be!!!!! What we ordered:

• black garlic ramen with shio
• yasaka tonkotsu shio ramen

Rate: 7/10

*Valentine's day getaway

I know i've neglected this blog for a long long time, i think its time to get back on track. Lets begin my 2016 post with our Valentine days getaway 

Destination: 

Perth- Margaret River- Yallingyup- Dunsborough- Busselton- Perth

Duration: 

48 hour