this certain situation is driving her crazy. one moment she could feel hopeful and have a positive sense of anticipation. the next moment, she feels doomed and everything is about to fail. its inevitable that shes ordinarily a very balanced person, its in her nature. she doesnt allow emotions to seesaw in this way. but right now the potential threat or reward is so great that she has given in to fear and worry, and its putting a huge strain on such a quick occasion. the feeling of insecurities and craving stability is invading the onced balanced mind. maybe its the lack of pragmitical sense of miind.
karma can be a bitch , and she's feeling the burning fire penetrating through her emotions. should she be happy that things are moving on ? but why is the fear and tear overrides such thoughts?
maybe he was right,
' deep inside you know that you still miss me' ,
this was why she kept coming back.
This time it would be different, the once warm hearted opened door, has now shut upon its timeframe. promised and stated words,'ill never find another, and be alone for the rest of my life' ,is being backfired.
but what if. . . . .
she wanted it all back ?
a given chance, to restart over.
realistically, it may all be too late.
late, the door has shut, not a glimpse of light is piercing through.
she wishes him well and pretentiously happy for him on moving on .
goodbye,mybelovedboy
i wrote you a letter, but my ego is not allowing me to send it .
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